87 ~ She Surrended To God Part 2

By Kay Heitsch

Since Todd's death in February 1988, God has given me many opportunities to exercise my faith in Him. As I continue to practice positive thinking, I show the Lord to others in a positive way by distributing Dr. Pealse's book and booklet. I regularly give them to friends and relatives, to my children's teachers, to kids going off to college, to residents in nursing homes, to inmates in the county jail, and I leave copies in waiting rooms throughout the community.

I carry booklets with me at all times, in my purse. Whenever I meet someone I feel will benefit from reading a booklet, I hand them one. Many times, people will say, "How did you know? This booklet is just what I needed."

When "In Loving Memory of Todd" was published in PLUS, I ordered 1000 copies to hand out. Almost every time I gave people copies, they asked for more so they could pass them along to others they knew who would benefit from reading the story.

What appeared to be the worst possible thing that could ever happen to me, Todd's death, has been turned into an outreach to others, sharing the positive power of Jesus Christ.

I have been able to speak publicly about my experience. At first, I was hesitant. Even though many positive things have happened as a result of Todd's death, the pain of my loss is still fresh. It is still difficult for me to speak of Todd without choking on the tears his memory sometimes brings. I knew I did not have the strength, on my own, to speak publicly about Todd. But I never said no. I left the door open for the right time.

Because Dr. Peale says that the Bible is a positive book, I decided to find out for myself. Over the past two years, I have spent every spare minute studying the Bible. I found some colored pencils the kids had around the house and started to highlight all the words that I felt spoke to me.

The more I read, the more I began to trust in the Lord. I began to see that He was not asking me to do anything that He would not give me the ability to do.

It was clear that God had a plan for my life in relationship with Him. As my eyes were opened, I felt confident that God had begun a good work in me and He would continue it. Once my focus shifted from my inability to His ability to work through me, I agreed to speak publicly and have shared my testimony many times.

To be continued...