By Kay Heitsch
Going back to Ohio after Todd's funeral and leaving Todd's body in Michigan wasn't easy for me.
I was still numb and continued going about the motions of what was now supposed to be a normal life. But it was not normal! Todd was not home. I wanted to scream!
I found myself going down to Todd's room and lying on his waterbed. I had taken Todd's letterman jacket back home after it was in the casket at the funeral. I would hold Todd's jacket because it still had his smell on it.
I buried Todd with his first stuffed animal. I kept it in a bag next to my chair at the funeral home. When everyone left, I lovingly placed his one black and one blue ear dog close to Todd's heart. Now I wanted that dog to hold on to. Maybe it would give me some comfort.
Being numb helped this nightmare to some degree, but it was only a matter of time before I knew the numbness wore off. Then what?
How on this earth was I ever going to go on without Todd?
I praise God for the small everyday things that seemed to help ease this emotional pain. But they were not enough!
"Write down for the coming generation what the Lord has done, so that people not yet born will praise Him." Psalm 102:18
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